Behind those blue eyes

I haven't written on this in a while so i feel like it is time i write about my ex fiance Bill.Well bill was an old friend I lost contact with a long time ago.And in February 2007 started talking to again things were going slow between us.I remember I was so nervous for the play we were doing and for the 1 year anniversary of losing Dominick.That on the opening night I was talking with him back and forth through emails and it just came out that i hated being single.Even though I was still legally married to Daniel he was with Lizzy and had their daughter what was I suppose to do?So I went to the show and while backstage sat with my friend Ariel and we talked about Dominick and all this other stuff with me.I hope i can talk to her some more.Well we had an amazing first night and I got home to find to my surprise that if i had stayed on for a few seconds more i would have seen.Bill writing to me that we were going to be an item.For us everything was amazing.Well it came march 4Th 2007 the day of 1 year before i lost my baby boy.Bill turned to me before i left and said will marry me.And me being either in complete grief or what agreed.We were together and very happy until around may.Me and bill had a hard time cuz i lived out here and him in fl.So we would talk every night on the phone then it went every other night.Well in may he was suppose to call me that Monday night.And so i waited till 7pm the time he calls.And nothing i waited and waited and nothing.So the next morning before school i write him telling him to call me that night.Well i got home and he never came on or anything.Still no call.Wed the same thing i was really worried.Well Thursday i had to go do the show only to find out from my mother that he called while i was at the high school.I was happy to hear he finally called.And when i got home from school got all my messages to him back telling me how sorry he was and wanted to tell me what happened on the phone.But i had the play that night.So i had my friend let me use her phone and gave him her number and since i was the ticket manager for this play i got to leave the ticket booth go outside and smoke a cig with friends and wait for him to call me.When he called to hear his voice again I wanted to cry.Where was he for the last three days?In jail and the worst part was he was just about to come see me and be here with me not that long after it.So I was crushed.And everything after that night between us were good but at the same time bad as it went downhill.In may of 2008 i finally after so long walked away from him for good.And now i see why i was so proud of myself for it and am glad to finally be me.