Healing

That day replays in my mind.
How could it have happened between us.
Not even I can define.
I know how much he regrets it.
Because when you take a drug that happens to be mixed.
You can't stop you yourself from anything.
Some will say it was still your fault.
But they don't know the whole shit.
You mean more to me than anything.
You saw me as me.
Then everyone thought the worst.
When the guys all ran from your grandma's house.
As you slept and didn't know our lives would change.
That right before the hell happened.
Was me sitting alone wanting to scream.
There in my hand it was.
The test that I was scared to show you.
After you showed up and did what that for me.
I forgave you for the pain you caused me.
I know how you are and know what you feel.
Soon after later that night it came true.
As I saw the blue eyes sparkle as you saw what I knew.
Our family no matter what will always be true.
I love you dorko and you know that is true.
But I am not in love with you.
We went apart and grew up.
I need a love that is true.
I can't keep living this life.
So here is soul to you.
Were still friends forever.
But dorko I have to leave you.